Hey,
Just wondering did anyone ever feel suffocate before? As in real sufocate? Not just emotionally but physically too? Lui Chang told me that if a prson commit suicide through consuming pills, than he or she will end up peeing in his or her own pants due to lack of control over muscle. I mean like, man that's real disgusting, I wonder if it's true or not?
I serioiulsy need a little bit of room to breath. I think I will suffocate in a roomful of pple. Saturday is nice, at least there is no one here to bother me about my stuff. In the olden days of Europe pple used to go fox hunting. A few dozen men chasing after a miserable fox running for his life. And the "bang, bang" resounded n its head and it was before it even know. Right now I feel exactly the same way. People just keep bothering me and intruding my privacy. I feel as if the whole entire world is cornering around me and trying to "hunt" me down and there is no way to escape. I WANT TO RUNAWAY. Can people just get off my back? When is it the last straw for me? Will I die? When will everything end? When will everyone give me a complete silent? When will I fall off the edge?
I don't know if anybody understand. But even if they do, I'm not sure I believe. I really don't want to be problemholic for anyone. I'm sorry if am. I just want to be alone. Don't bother me. I don't mind trival talks and smiles but if it gets more than that, like asking whether I am fine for like every 5 minutes ( I am NOT exergarating!! ) then I think you just went over the edge. Eiher U go crazy from asking OR I go crazy from hearing and answering. And in this case I think I go insane first before you do. I need to breath, BREATH!! You hear me? And I feel SO SUFFOCATED when you ask that. As if every of my actions is carefully scruntinise under your eyes and every little mistakes trigger off an endless questins of asking " Are you alright?". And guess what? If you not sick of asking, then well, I tell you I AM SO SICK of hearing and that not including answering. I mean what do you expect my answer to be? I hate people asking. I just want silent. If you think that is your way of concern then I rather you not. Because you seriously don't understand that when I said I am sick of hearing it I totallky mean it. SICK as in S-I-C-K, get it? I think I scream if somebody ask me that question again. I'm sorry, if that's really is your way of expressing you concern then keep it to yourself because you are pushing me over the edge. And if you claim that you are concern, then stop it right there right now.
Anyway today is weekend and thank god, I have got 2 days of peace for me to rest. RUNAWAY.
Just wondering did anyone ever feel suffocate before? As in real sufocate? Not just emotionally but physically too? Lui Chang told me that if a prson commit suicide through consuming pills, than he or she will end up peeing in his or her own pants due to lack of control over muscle. I mean like, man that's real disgusting, I wonder if it's true or not?
I serioiulsy need a little bit of room to breath. I think I will suffocate in a roomful of pple. Saturday is nice, at least there is no one here to bother me about my stuff. In the olden days of Europe pple used to go fox hunting. A few dozen men chasing after a miserable fox running for his life. And the "bang, bang" resounded n its head and it was before it even know. Right now I feel exactly the same way. People just keep bothering me and intruding my privacy. I feel as if the whole entire world is cornering around me and trying to "hunt" me down and there is no way to escape. I WANT TO RUNAWAY. Can people just get off my back? When is it the last straw for me? Will I die? When will everything end? When will everyone give me a complete silent? When will I fall off the edge?
I don't know if anybody understand. But even if they do, I'm not sure I believe. I really don't want to be problemholic for anyone. I'm sorry if am. I just want to be alone. Don't bother me. I don't mind trival talks and smiles but if it gets more than that, like asking whether I am fine for like every 5 minutes ( I am NOT exergarating!! ) then I think you just went over the edge. Eiher U go crazy from asking OR I go crazy from hearing and answering. And in this case I think I go insane first before you do. I need to breath, BREATH!! You hear me? And I feel SO SUFFOCATED when you ask that. As if every of my actions is carefully scruntinise under your eyes and every little mistakes trigger off an endless questins of asking " Are you alright?". And guess what? If you not sick of asking, then well, I tell you I AM SO SICK of hearing and that not including answering. I mean what do you expect my answer to be? I hate people asking. I just want silent. If you think that is your way of concern then I rather you not. Because you seriously don't understand that when I said I am sick of hearing it I totallky mean it. SICK as in S-I-C-K, get it? I think I scream if somebody ask me that question again. I'm sorry, if that's really is your way of expressing you concern then keep it to yourself because you are pushing me over the edge. And if you claim that you are concern, then stop it right there right now.
Anyway today is weekend and thank god, I have got 2 days of peace for me to rest. RUNAWAY.
posted by b£ü®ģü®£ @ 2:26 PM
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