Reminisce the past
I was reminisced about the past the past few days. About the times I should have treasured but let go. About the teeny, weeny bit of details that made up my life.
On Monday's night, a strong overwhelming feeling of deju wu swept over me. I was left nostaligic about the past, a ragdoll hanging on the thin string of memories. For a few moment I thought I was going to break down and cry but I didn't. Everything is over, isn't it? Even no matter how hard I cling on, it's over. A certain part of my life is past, it's in past tense. Even if I had all the money in the world, I couldn't buy time, a chance to start anew.
I asked a few of my friends. If one day they could have a chance and only a chance to start anew, would they? If everything even the ending is different, would they still take the chance and risk it? I would. I want to. I am not good at living in the present and the future but I'm good at lingering in the past. I want everything revert!!!
Anyway, I spent my these few days being a what the public called "couch potato". My life is made up of boring jigg saw puzzle that fills my life activities. My schedule is fully pack for the next few weeks off day, which is good, although I lost track of who I'm suppose to go out with. But needless to say, this is what life after secondary school is. Everybody will be furiously asking one another out, trying to cling or savage any friendship they could hang on to. I know I won't be on their mind for too long. One day, I'll still be a piece of memories folded at the back of their mind like an abandoned clothes at the back of the wardrode. But right now I make use of whatever little time I have or was it a "had" already?
On Monday's night, a strong overwhelming feeling of deju wu swept over me. I was left nostaligic about the past, a ragdoll hanging on the thin string of memories. For a few moment I thought I was going to break down and cry but I didn't. Everything is over, isn't it? Even no matter how hard I cling on, it's over. A certain part of my life is past, it's in past tense. Even if I had all the money in the world, I couldn't buy time, a chance to start anew.
I asked a few of my friends. If one day they could have a chance and only a chance to start anew, would they? If everything even the ending is different, would they still take the chance and risk it? I would. I want to. I am not good at living in the present and the future but I'm good at lingering in the past. I want everything revert!!!
Anyway, I spent my these few days being a what the public called "couch potato". My life is made up of boring jigg saw puzzle that fills my life activities. My schedule is fully pack for the next few weeks off day, which is good, although I lost track of who I'm suppose to go out with. But needless to say, this is what life after secondary school is. Everybody will be furiously asking one another out, trying to cling or savage any friendship they could hang on to. I know I won't be on their mind for too long. One day, I'll still be a piece of memories folded at the back of their mind like an abandoned clothes at the back of the wardrode. But right now I make use of whatever little time I have or was it a "had" already?
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