It's 3a.m. plus in the morning. Since I have nothing better to do, I blog. My whole family went to some funeral today, nobody bother to come home. In a way it felt empty but the funny thing is, it felt even more empty with them around. At least now it's the cold hard darkness that greets me, no longer the non-existence feeling you give me each time I feel you.
I like staying home alone. No more critical voice, no more feeling unwanted. I can do what I like, like what I'm doing right now-- switching the volome of the music to my satisdfaction. Haha.
Oh yeah, btw, I change my layout in case you dun notice it. I didn't like it that much. It is just some dumb layout I did for the sake of doing but I didn't like it. I did not even use any brush on that dumb image. But I just like the picture with the knife behind it. It's so sinister as if something bad, really bad is going to happen.
The world is so materialistic out there. I hate it. I plan to lock myself and contact only a few friends after O'level. I plan to move out. I plan to work to save my ass. I plan to lock myself in my own world. I plan todie. haha. But it's all just a plan. I wish I have what it takes. I wish for all my plan to fall in place. But it's just so hard for everything to be perfect. It's just so hard.
I want to study, I want to do stuff. But can the world stop harrasing my way of doing things? Can I stop going with the world pace? Can I just be myself. It's just so frustrating hard.
Listening to good charlotte -We believe. It' nice. There's a thing called faith. Just hang on to anything and believe in what you do. We all fall. We all cry. We all get hurt. And when we do, suddenly, life's became a thin string in the cold night air. Just hang on and believe you get there or whatever. Seeing and believing the things unseen. Believing that you will get better although you dun think so. So whatever.
Sharing is fun. I like sharing.
It's now 4 a.m. in the morning. Hehe. I'm going cycling later. I think so. It'll be fun. Fresh air. Cold morning.
I like staying home alone. No more critical voice, no more feeling unwanted. I can do what I like, like what I'm doing right now-- switching the volome of the music to my satisdfaction. Haha.
Oh yeah, btw, I change my layout in case you dun notice it. I didn't like it that much. It is just some dumb layout I did for the sake of doing but I didn't like it. I did not even use any brush on that dumb image. But I just like the picture with the knife behind it. It's so sinister as if something bad, really bad is going to happen.
The world is so materialistic out there. I hate it. I plan to lock myself and contact only a few friends after O'level. I plan to move out. I plan to work to save my ass. I plan to lock myself in my own world. I plan to
I want to study, I want to do stuff. But can the world stop harrasing my way of doing things? Can I stop going with the world pace? Can I just be myself. It's just so frustrating hard.
Listening to good charlotte -We believe. It' nice. There's a thing called faith. Just hang on to anything and believe in what you do. We all fall. We all cry. We all get hurt. And when we do, suddenly, life's became a thin string in the cold night air. Just hang on and believe you get there or whatever. Seeing and believing the things unseen. Believing that you will get better although you dun think so. So whatever.
Sharing is fun. I like sharing.
It's now 4 a.m. in the morning. Hehe. I'm going cycling later. I think so. It'll be fun. Fresh air. Cold morning.
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