I really don't feel like talking to anyone at all today. And most probably this feelng will stay with me for the next few days, so pardon me if I reply to none of the msg send to me via msn, sms or even telephone.

Today woke up at 3 oclock in the afternoon. My whole body clock is spoil but watever.

I don't know, the whole issue yesterday is totally breaking me up. Just when I thought things getting better, the earth just crumpled beneath me and shallowed me up. But I'm still alright, it was a huge blow but I accepted it already.

Guess what? When the person wrote that guess she wasn't thinking that much anyway. So now I won't think that much about her feelings when I write it openly write now.

I wanted to say to the person. Maybe it's a small matter to you. U obviously don't think much about it or the way you wrote it. But it still hurts because YOU were one of those that were by my side all this while. When I did stuff, U were the one that seemed to care. You took time to talk to me. Although there unspoken words, you always give me the impression you understand. I always thought you do. And although we seldom hang out, but when we do you shared with me a lot of ur stuff and in a way I opened up to you. Then comes all this shit. Then I realised you are not who I think you were. I don't trust you now and I don't trust myself much more. Look like it's another should-have-been-better friendship. But together we spoiled it all.